Reflections..

I’ve been thinking real hard about this. I know it may sound crap. Sorry to say but truthfully I think it’s worthless for you to read. I’m missing what I’d done in my previous days. I just miss what I did. Be it with my friends, family or just self achievements.

I used to love what I did. Acting and crapping about thing that all of us can talk about at same Frequency. No one left out in any conversation. No one. I mean it. During the camp, Naqiah wiped out cause of disappointment. What are all these things about? Many might ask. Let me just say this for real.

Dearest Naqiah and Fatin: I know that you pal were utterly disappointed with Many things. Fatamorgana and Her. So am I. But no one is to be blamed. I sat down thinking about it. Even till now, I know she might have left due to her own reason. She might have something urgent to attend to. Everything happens for a reason. Please bear that in mind. Do you still remember what we did to her, few months back? When she planned a mini celebration for us. What did we do, we disappoint her. No one came. I was up with thing during her very last performance. No one came and supported her. I guess, it’s just right for her to do that. To feel what she felt before. Still, I miss her and appreciate her a lot. She’s one who has really changed me. Bringing out the best in me. Giving the best opportunity for me to get closer to Arts and Music. Her way of thinking is way better than MANY other people or lecturers. She’s an Intelligencia. She changed the mindset of many people through her writing. She’s not just a someone. Still, I miss her and respect her like I always do.

Firstly sorry if this Para might be a little off.

I sat down, thinking about the whole Production once and again. How did this happen? Started of with my sis who sat beside me, asking about my health when suddenly, a question popped out from my mouth. She answered it very well. Guess, her comments tallied well with mine (even I didn’t take major in Malay lit In NTU. Durh.) and it makes me wanting to work even harder with MCG drama in times to come. Can ALL of us make a promise to give a SOLID Professional production in months ahead? Where WE can change EVERYONE’s mindset of NYP MCG. Deep down within me, I was drenching when the audience couldn’t get what the play was trying to portray. I got even sulked down by the fact that even the elderly were laughing and got involved in the rudeness of few other audiences. Su was the mood changer. I really thank her for doing that. Zai, I think wasn’t you who supposed to get those slap. But ‘EM. I couldn’t accept it and I hate critics. Thus, I want things to be perfect and through perfection, we gain achievements.

I think back about the time when I was in Fata. Going for competitions, standing of stage, ALL OF US Giving all that we could just to make the audience convinced. Feel how we felt, be it sorrow, anguishes, successes or anything. The crowd was calm and we got all the respect. When there’s failure, we learnt from it. We hated the mistakes we made. Prevent and never ever want to do that again. How strong we are. I miss that. But I still know that, No matter where we are, when there’s passion, there’s always a way.

I just missed and want to thank them so much. All. Everyone! Those who bought us /ME food! Actors! Crews! SM! Myself! Darn!!!! ARGH! HAHA.
SMILE!
I MISS WHEN YOU PLAYED STAND BY ME.. Argh. K. done. HUSH!
Enjoys!