Time...Passes...

Time passes really fast. Two weeks back, i remembered myself having to struggle with the piles of work. It was damn hell that i had to rushed through every single bit of it till my last breathe. Nah , not that complicated. haha. Just before the date line people. =P

Ohkay, i can see that my blog is of whatever result thus, i'm going to clean up the dust! SHH SHH!
Wiped it off with wet Cloth and spray it with water! Wohoo!*sweep sweep*. Ok . Im done! But how come it is still the same? Nah. Its alright.

Dearest Paradox941.blogspot.com. NOW, then did i realize . . . . (haha. Just for me to know).

Project done. Thanks to classmates of mine. Many of them to be precise.
Thank You, MYSELF, Halifah, Shamin,Zheng Jie(finaliser), Kenneth (tukang kacau jer), Tqah, (updater), and few seniors. Thank you. =)

Today Digital Electronic was ... let me just tell you abit about the Before and after.
Halifah called me to ask a few questions that she doubts and yeap manage to tell her what she wanted to know. So, after revising from home, in MRT, till reached school, we were somehow confident to Get our A's BUT after we were dismissed from the lecture room, WE were X-tremely sure that we are going to get a D-istinction! Damn Damn Damn. It's freaking hard lah damn! Haiz.

NYP DEADLY news have been going around quite recently. About the 2 buddies who were killed in car accident. Sob. RIP. Pls god, spare us longer life span. *Pray*.

wordpress News On It

*Khad and Kim, Thank you ar korang willing to makan kat Pizza Hut sbab aku nak mkn! Muahah! =P Lain Kali, at SIAM KITCHEN SUNTEC LAH. *like real.*

(Im freaking bored! 20 min lah eh!..haiz.)

Take care people!

AMAZING....

Do this when you are bored. haha.
I find it amazing.
so, have fun, being, insane for a sec or two. =P

Good day and have fun.
All the best to me for PMP presentation and DCN prac.
*pray*.

GOLDEN ROSES

Haha. Alrte. Updating things that i have no idea what i should update. Alrte.

I guess, i m having quite a fun, blabbering, gossiping, advising, critising, praising, and many more with people!

How great can that be right?

Alrite, i've been missing for two days of my morning class.

I couldn't get up at 6 in the morning for my 8 am class and yeap, i have to skip it, Well, coming late is not what i like, so, yeap! *absent*.

I slept around 5 or plus and w.t.f, able to wake up only at 3 in the afternoon. haiz. haiz. haiz.

Tired. Just too tired.

and and....

THANK YOU TQAH, for the small HARD CARD! sweeTTT!

THANK YOU FOR THE BLANJA MAKAN OLD PALS!!!
AND THANK YOU FOR THE BELATED WISHES even after 3 4 5 days. =)

here's the rose i MADE. by fererro rocher! =) THANK YOU. nicer that tissue flowers rte?! muahhahahhahahahhahha! *YOU SAID IT*


and a snap shot before meeting old pals! =P

TAKE CARE OI!!

A BIG.....

A BIG THANK YOU. =)

GHOST

HEY!. Thank you so very much for the Guitar necklace. =)
Its really nice and too sweeTt haha. Yeap, i tell peopleabout it. How's that? haha.
But, its friendship for friendship rte? Thank you so much!
If there's anytime you want it back.....
haha. I will give you back. I THINK.
muhaha!
Hey take care and all the best for PMP. Keep Pimping Ya'll!


MIM HAHA. Thank You for the rose. haha! The UNCLE took it. haha.
Still, thank you for eveything. haha! At last, i know the joke. Haiz.
haha! Keep Smiling , smile, laugh, be insane or whatever as long and you Have fun!
Take care!


YAZID

Haha. Thank you so much for the Paper Flower.
haha! 6 but left 5 cause i gave one to a friend of mine since she loves it.
Thank you and still, haha! next time do MORE! *yumyum*
And hey! I still keep it in a small throphy vase. Kes takder kerje lah eh! haha.
Thank you, thank you and thank you.
*i can do my vb already.HAHA*
Take care!


Halifah aka TIBBY

ok! Thank you so much! and hey.. I beg you.. pls don'tlie anymore.
I hate ppl lieing to me. What's more is, i wouldn't be able to say a truthful thank to you.
Darn. still, wanna tell you that i love you.
haha! OKOK. No emo here!
*i know you love me too even if you say you dont! =PPPP*
take care!

Thank you people for a big hug, a kiss, belated wish, belated calls, and many more. haha!
Thank you. =)

My birthday? Read if you have ntg else to do.

20th January 2008.

Marks a memorable day for me. I guess.
I turned 18. Yeapyeap. *clap*

18? A good or a bad number this year?
Let's not make any assumptions.

Firstly thank you so much for all the wishes, gift, presents, hugs, kisses, loves or should i say, small thoughts. Thank you.

Let me be frank. I wasn't looking forward to my bdae. Well, i know it's over and in my heart, i kept saying.."thank god, its finally over." But, im really grateful that god loves me and willing to spare me a longer life. Thank you.

It's nice to have friends who are there, willing to be by your side when you think you are at the edge of the life zone on your bdae. What's worst is, having a half heartedly - want to celebrate birthdays and whatever fuck you would say. I wish , i was wasn't there celebrating my birthday.

Read this only if you have nothing to do.
I'm going to tell you how i celebrated my 18th birthday.

19th january.
I slept at 4 am on the day itself and find myself not able to do my prayers. I neglected my responsibility as muslim and what's more, i have already got my name scrap for not able to do the rest of it when i slept the whole day the moment i reached home. I AM TIRED. I was and i felt that i could rest in peace the moment i laid myself on the couch. However, some people just won't understand the fatigueness of other people. Thus, taking away my sleep, assuming that when i went home late, online and keep staring on my laptops, I WAS just having the fun time of my life. They didn't even asked if i have eaten, if i were sick, if i had too much work, if i need someone to talk thing out, if i need to jump down from 30th floor. None. I went home, they yelled to say, 'don't pretend to go slp, don't pretend to do your prayers, so on and so forth'. Have you ever think, how tired i am till i could just get into the train track, knock and thankfully got alerted by a car horn while crossing the road, have you ever think of that. Nope. When i didn't eat, have you ever asked? Or would you just say, 'argh, don't have to ask she have eaten outside. Must be at a standard place, she wont eat home food.' Whatever.

I got grounded and when i know i wasn't even able to stand up, you purposely said, 'aww, you think your the only one who is sick? no one else is tired huh?! Don't you think you can go out with your friends.' You started to repeat what you have said. AGAIN AND AGAIN.

Aifah, Nurul @ My house.

I got called from Aifah, Nurul and Khad. Thought of going out and celeb. I knew i wasn't able to, so i decided to call it off. I'm really sorry people, but thank you so much. I got called from Aifah and yeap, "we reached infront of your house." How sweeT can that be. I wasn't expecting anyone or anybody to visit me. But gurls, Thank you so much. The big and small present. I know you people were tired. Thank you. Thank You for spending hours talking and updating, sharing and understanding. Thank you. Its was about to midnight and then they went off. I'm really grateful to all of you. Thank you for spendin and celebrating with me. Thank you. I promise i will put on weight and move on FASTER than you think. haha.Aifah Gifts. =)

Nurul Gifts.

20th january.
It was midnite and thank you so very much to people who have sent me bdae wishes to me through Calls, SMSes, Friendster, Bebo, Hi5, MSN Messenger, Emails and Individually. Thank you.

I was really thankful to you people who have spend a minimun of 5 cents and a few sec to wish me. Thank you. haha. For the small gifts, Self-made gifts, etc, Thank you. I cannot Thank you people more that i wanted to. Again Thank you.

Before my bdae, WE, as a family, have planned and AGREE on where to celebrate. I THOUGHT everything is going to be so fine. However, haha. Whatever. My initial plan was to treat them to Seoul Garden. Its like not so everyday, so i thought it would be nice to have a fam outing after a long time, busy with own work, school work, business or whatever. Then again, it backfired. Cause, of time. Its all about time. We were otw and then , my parent were like saying, SORRY, we have no time. or not enough time to eat out together cause i'll be late for this and that. Mum said it too. Then dad asked only the three of us to go, WITHOUT THEM. like, WTH. I kept silent and smile. Shooke my head and said, till next sat. And then again, "We have to go KL for some reason". I smile and nodded my head, AGAIN. and then, why not, NEXT NEXT sat. I SHUT UP and DRIVE.

We went to eat out and i spend my days with bro and sis. Then Again, bro started to backfired thing. For whatever reason. Then, sis and me, haha. Bought a cake and like whatever, went home.

Bro.

At home, aunts and cousins came, like thats so usual. And mum started to fired up things saying about this and that. Saying.. ok whatever fuck. What is so furkingly diff to sing a bdae song? OK fine. i Dont mind you ppl don't sing. A prayer will do. Well, my dad did that when i was away, Thank you. Things are so diff that bro started saying, i bought the cake for us, why give them!?! ARGH! WHY WHY WHY? CAN I CRY! Damn! Ok shut up. Smile. I promise, tomo i'm giving you back the cake. Thanks for everything bro. Since none are willing to sing or whatever fuck, i cut the cake and That's marked the end of my bdae celeb.

Aunts. and still there's more. Thank you for the money from diff AUNTS.@ Hajjah Maimunah Restaurants

Go find your source of happiness, TV, RADIO, COOKING, WORKING, AND JUDGING.

Zila, Zura,Zal

From Sis.Mum and Dad.
______________________

Flash Backs.

• 2005 Bdae

• 2006 Bdae

• 2007 Bdae
• JUST THE LINK>
  

Thank you for everything People.
I Enjoyed My bdae celebrations.
Thank You.

I wish i could clean out my closet.

EXTRACT.

I said I'm sorry mama
I never meant to hurt you
I never meant to make you cry
But tonight I'm cleaning out my closet

Now, I would never diss my own mama just to get recognition.
Take a second to listen for you think this record is dissin'.
But put yourself in my position, just try to envision,
witnissin' your mama poppin' prescription pills in the kitchen.

Well guess what, I am dead, dead to you as can be.

Just one more time....
I wish i could clean out my closet.
Oh Shut UP.

ALHAMDULILAH!

*back to my old addiction.*

hahahahha!!! okok, AKU HAPPY! AKU GILER! AKU SUKER!

THANKS FOR EVERYTHING BROMO.

Go MANdai UNITED!
*promotional video and the song*HEHE*

CHECK OUT, At SURIA, TV3 the Drama Release on 23 Feb.=)

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

I'll shut. =X

*Kenangan Demi Kenangan*

Kenangan yang Dikenang

*chorusKU*

ku cuba untuk berdiri

meyakinkan diriku ini

ke satu arah, tiada kanan ataupun kiri,

di mana ku pasti ,

kan terukir senyuman

Kerana

Kenangan yang dikenang...

(the ppl who never failed to listen to my Crappy song. =P)

TASK:

*CCT (checked)
* lyrics and melody. (checked)
*reply of emails (checked)
*PMP(yet)
*IAD(yet)
*polish Guitar (yet)
*preview, demo of songs.(yet)
* recordings.(yet)
*two tracks of other songs.(yet)
* Promotional track + video.(yet)

*DAMN*

Peace! =)

ALL I NEED IS....TIME.

There's too many things for me to do.
Why on earth am i finding these problems.
And, whats more? the time limit is too short.
I almost have my head go bonkers.
ALL I NEED IS....TIME.

Programming Methodologies & Practices.
Real thanks to the freaking Project. I hate Projects. Yeap, i do. Lectures were fine and Lab was of a TOTAL disaster. Programming? Hell Shit. I did the interface and got to know that it's not USER-FRIENDLY. I know i'm mean. But, whatever. Im just too tired.

Internet Application Developement/Web-designing
- Alfie, thank you for the compliment yea. haha. Just tooo nice. But, i couldn't crack my head further. All my creativity and idealistic ideas have gone down with the flow of water at kallang river. Darn. What's more, Java Script here, Applets there. Just to insane for all of us to get everything done.

Creativity and Critical Thinking
- I've yet to finish all the reports. Sux. Furkin-tunately, we have to present the full 20 pages reports next week On Tuesday. It's like only 3 credits and argh, it's a tough and tedious work. My creativity died along the way..

Graphic Design
- Storyboard. What the heck? First, you have to think of cartoon you what you character to be, then, you draw, you sketch, you scan, you vector it, you flash it, and Hand it. Damn! What a work! =.=

Digital Electronic Project
- Dead. I never wanna talk about it. I don't like to wish for any parts of my body to be electrocuted , still, sometimes I DO.

Songs Submission
- I'm left with less 48 hours. I've yet to finalize the Lyrics. I've yet to find right melody for the chorus. I've yet to record the song with minus/instrumental version. I've to put in vocals. I've yet to burn the song. I've yet to call HIM. Thank you to Rusdy for the great help despite the fact that there small backfires here and there due to Misunderstanding communication. Thank you again.

Reply of Emails.
I received many and long emails concerning problems from different friends. Argh. This kills me. I know they are MY FRIENDS. But, i'm sorry, but for the meanwhile, i'm not able to help all of you much. I'm sorry. I have too many things in mind too. And still, i'm just hoping you all will do the right thing for yourself. I'm sorry if i didn't get to reply all your messages. Really sorry.

Meetings
- Meeting Adeline tomo cause she'ss willing to help me in the songs. Well, Thank you so much. Please help me even though you said, you have put aside piano for quite a long time. Still, i remember you as the Best pianist found. 7th Grade rte. ok. See ya tomo.
- Wrap and Suraj. For TP Open House. Argh. That's like so damn far. Argh. Alright alrite. cya soon.

ME.
I need a good, long sleep.
I need an ultra-good joke.
I need good-energy food.
Most importantly...
- I NEED....TIME.

DO THIS WHEN YOU CAN'T LAUGH ANYMORE.

NOT THIS ...
*STILL, IT MAKES ME LAUGH. HAHA*

Take care.

Call me someone who doesn't appreciate helps.
Yeap, I know I sux.
Thank you.

HAHAHA.

I SWEAR. IT really nice to have people making you laugh.
At nights especially.
I'm just so having fun and at the same time, i Learnt that we can laugh all we want and be happy.
Not thinking about other things, but just be happy.


Shamin! Thank you lah eh! crapping and saying about stupid stuffs. Tolerating my ultimate crappest jokes. You laughed even at the bike?! what the heck. You're the best lamest person i've ever found.
Ass. You wontlaugh at my jokes! Then why LAUGH ABOUT THE BIKES!!!!
The continuation are way!!! funny!!.. ahha!

Next.
Yazid. Aduhai! this one. need not say aything. This part is just way tooo hilarious! hahaha!!
I couldn't do an extract of anything cause EVERYTHING was way too funny! Alrite, firstly its like, everything was so hype up and then, he decided to say that i should be less hype or else i would be taken to IMH. BAD. So, I decided to have a game with him. And it goes..like..this.. Nah. Let's keep it as a secret! *muahaha!*.And.. Yeap, he won. haiz. I can't control my laughter! Damn damn damn. Bleargh. Blanja lah yer? haha. You decide. =) and.. the continuous was way to funny.... Still. haha! Ok. I'm putting up my current addiction. HOT AS ICE BY BRITNEY. ahha! You hate it rte?!MUAHAHA! Hu cares. =P Still, I HAVE ALWAYS LOVE BRITNEY. =)

"Break it down!"

Me and The people! ahah

Pls Dont get me wrong, Im NOT hinting or Anything. I'm left with only fourteen days before i turn a year older. SUCK. I swear. Oh my god. After thinking, it will be too soon before i would be called a TEEN. Damn. Looking at the people around me, I couldnt imagine that most of my friends are like, turning 20? already 20?22?23? 24?26?. Oh man. Oh man. I dno wanna grow up!!!!

Alright next, I was reading Melvyn's blog entries and i found myself smiling and giggling in front of my comp. Hell Yea. It was an entry about Music Artist. Let's not mention anything cause i'm not here to discriminate anyone or anything in particular. haha. But, still, it was really hilarious to see the words, or what you say if you're a Professional G.Designer, TYPOGRAPHY. He was bold enough to use those words that i 'cunt' use. haha! Well well well, 23 what more can you expect. =) And its great to be 23, i think.*that's old lah plz~ SUET* haha!

Suet. Hmm was chatting with her and yeap, she'll be having her driving test on Mon. All the very best ok?! You can do it. Im really to sorry to say this but i still not sure about what you were talking about in the conversation concerning you driving license. I've still yet to take it. 18 *soon, i'll know*. hehe!
But who cares, all i know was you are afraid not able to pull off that test or yours, but, believe in yourself and...you can do it. You'll be wasting money and time if you did not pass, rte? so... All the very best! *project dn forget yea?! hehe. =)*

Eggy! Update me more. haha. i'm missing all the updates. Damn. But you know, i was so so so happy to hear about Jong happily attached to you. How cute. Well, remember the time i said, if you want, go for it?! I remembered the time you're down and ass lah, so weak like i dno what to compare you to. haha! Still still, good to hear that. Haiz. suddenly i feel like joining band where i started of in NYP with you, shamin and val. Damn. Im too sicked in the brain. Take care. Updates pls. haha!


Shamin! Wei, kau ok tak?! haha. Anywae, hope your really fine. =) serious. Not kidding. and yeap, haha, we are really bad people cause we didn't help Alex. =( I really feel so guilty. But yeap, like i said, i have 'motorcycle prac', so i need to go home. And you bloody guy, Dont laugh just cause im saying it arcade motor ride. Anywae, Taken medcine and pills? hahaha! four times? wow. Impressive. Okok. Semoga anda Baik dgn cepat! And and, When your hart is pain... Heal it! there's no other way. Muahaha!!!

Maurice! I'm bored and yeap, 'the problem is 'the problems!' '. hahaha! Okok. Im not being bad or sad or anything. But yeap, thank you so much for helping out with the elective thing. Im such an idiot in finding but not solving problems. And hehe, if able to, share you group presentation tactics ok?! muahaha! thank you you're missed! =)

Eunice! I wanna go jam. Too many things in mind already. It's been a long time since we both abandoned each other. ass lah. Wei, 'Kiss Me' uh?! hahha! Nice. when you compose the song? Impressive. =) Anywae,

ok. bored!

Thank You and Peace to Liberty.

*still, i love Tqah and Halifah! Better be ready to hear my karaoke version of all Britney SONGS! wohoooo! =P*

BE CREATIVE.! BREAK THE RULES. ITS FUN. =)

It's funny how our minds thinks. In Graphic Design class just now, Halifah and Myself DID NOT pay any attention (we did, a lil)to her lesson. Man, it was three hours of Photoshop and well, we are way to good for, magic wand, masking, layers, typography and few things. *Halifah is way better then me, so shutup zura. haha!* Tqah, was paying too attention till she got stressed up. Haha.

Let me show you what we have to do AND what HALIFAH and I DID till we got caught by MR *whats the malay guy lecturers name again?*.haha! BUT thank you lecturer, you said mine was "oooo, we have something interesting. Is this like web design for you know, like disney channel or somthing?", he smile! MCM MCM.

THIS IS LECTURER's WORK.
(what we were suppose to do)....BUT

HALIFAH'S WORK.
(entitled: NY IN CRIES)hahaha!

FINALLY,
MY WORK! =)
*im proud of it even after getting scolded cum praised. =P*


GOOD BYE. and love.

*khad, hope your fine. =)

THANK YOU FOR THAT CALL.=)

Only HIM knows how euphoric i was when i got to pick up that call!
.... as I opened my eyes and found 'BRO MO' was on the line, i IMMEDIATELY jumped up from the bed and picked up the call...the anxiety to hear khabar from him was indescribable... he just got back from Malaysia and congrats on the final shooting...thank you for the opportunity... i am really thankful to god for.....
hahah! allowing me to work and help in.....The HAL-EHWAL Collaborater Drama. =)
So.. now..., i need to polished and present my....
MUSIC ARRANGING AND COMPOSING SKILL!

CUT! NEXT!
Thank you for always,always,always believing in me even though each time you called, i may sound a lil orang yang tk waras! haha. Shocking ! And.. i will do..... my best for something i have always wanted to do.
I'll call asap, when im done with it. =)

Miracles does happened.
"who says a girl can't be a music composer?? .....you do this, i'll make your dream come true"-*****
haha!
It's a big opportunity for me to grab.
hahahhahahahhahahhahahahaha!
I still wanna meet art fazil. I still wanna meet mayuni. I still wanna me iskandar . and many more....
Thank you , thank you and thank you. =)


Even if fail as an actor...
*still, my ambition is to be a music composer*

THANK YOU AND TAKE CARE!!

A day before and a day after New Year.

A DAY BEFORE
Weakness of others were right in front of you,
what you did to me was definitely an outdo.
You give me chance but i dare not to try.
You pierced me right through, till there's tears in the eyes.

Failure has never been part of my plan.
I curse times I don’t, when I know that I can.
My standard, my goal, my hope is perfection,
yet I am met with regret, rebuke and rejection.
Failure is a companion I have grown to despise,
its taunts and its laughs are not found in your eyes.

A DAY AFTER
When we were young, we were taught of ways
of ways to 'sing', of ways to dance
when we grow up, we use it 'all',
but when we use it, it’s a great 'downfall'.

Why do I say this all of a sudden,
it happened to me, just for 'a moment'
A question was 'aired', and an answer was 'returned'
A 'great' time to think and for me to relearn

'Basics' and 'Fundamentals' are very Important
Before you 'assure' the sound from the ancient
The 'Ba' and The 'Di' have different 'tonality'
From voice judgment, there's different 'Capability'.

To be improved, To maintain, or 'you can work hard'
A very good praise, but it clenches the heart
A 'master' of music with a great theory,
what's more can I learn, after completing a 'Paper of Gd 3'.

W.E.M.

.Only the esoteric would understand.

Its's New year!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

HAHA. Yea, Happy new year. I don't really know whats there to be happy about?
Is it a happy thing to get a year older?
A year with more obstacles?
A year of up and downs.?
A year seeing competition in own eyes?
or?
haha

Who cares rite.?
Anyway, JUST BE HAPPY!..ok this year....
My new year resolution is....
To be someone smarter, someone better, someone useful for people around me, someone happier.(i've always been happy! ahhaha!), enjoying every single moments i spent with people around me, be better in and out, to love people around me, to be loved and....just keep on fighting and smiling!

OK people! You are loved.
Happy 2-0-0-8. =D