Just for U

I really don't know what the reason for me to write this post.
Maybe i think i really need to.

Let me be frank. I really don't know whether i used to talk to the person whom i'd used to talk to.
The hyper, non-problematic, free-stressed, and all the great thing that can be found in you.

Came upon a problem that u don't desired for. Unexpected and unwanted.
But u have to understand that everything happened for a reason and thus, u got to CARRY ON.
From the start, i knew that you are someone who love to bottles thing up. But once u said, "are you a person who loves to bottle things up?" And then, i answered and say, " yes". Only One word, and there u go, saying, i should not.

So now, i'm doing my part on saying that to you. Telling ur probs to me is not a burden.
What's the use of having a friend then?
I know if u have probs or not. So don't hide cause i know you.

Hmm..it feels good when i get to take some part of the sorrow. I love to make ones happy.
S0 if you are reading these, Pls smile! =>...promise!

Im happy when you are very happy! I'm sad when u are down . Without knowing what's the reason behind it.
It's internal and no one knows better then yourself. No one can feel how it feels cause no one has the same heart as what an individual has.

For the things you said to me, all i can say is, everything happened for a reason.
I know u want the old him back. But asked yourself if that's possible.
Even of your answer is going to be a No, HE, knows, that it's possible.
The only thing you need is time.Time changes and well, u will oneday obtain what u wanted.
Even if it's not now, someday, somehow, he will find back your love.
There's no Him, who will not love His beloved "diamonds".

Maybe, he got his own problems or he don't know how to expressed his feeling towards u ppl.
You guys are much bigger now and maybe he finds IT DIFFICULT to talk and interact with you guys.
Don't blame him for this situation yar? maybe he himself need time to work things out.

Try talking to him and say you hearts out, like for e.g, what you want from him, what you need and all.
Money and cash, looks and appearence is not what u want.It's he, himself and the true him. Show him that you love him. Do all the things that make him happy.
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Talk thing out and yea, make him understand you and vice versa.
Sori to tell these but i think these is the best way.

I noe how it feels as i'd experienced this.
But then, everything changes after many years.
the love and care i wanted is more than what i'd expected.
Then you will see the love form them.

I bet u. Stay happy and smile always ya!

~love myself! ahha!.
~Azura to U-Noe-Who.

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A Friend is a Treasure , but is there an option?

Let me start of with a lil poem for all the beloved ones.

A Friend is a Treasure
A friend is someone we turn to,
when our spirits need a lift.
A friend is someone we treasure,
for our friendship is a gift.
A friend is someone who fills our lives,
with beauty, joy and grace.
And make the world we live in,
a better and happier place.

Ok, here goes my entries.

I'm loving the blow of the breeze, the smiles from the peeps and everything around me.A beautiful wonder of the world, which makes my life blossoms and graceful. I love all the people around me that always make me to smile. Entertaining alll my craps, in school, outside school and at home. I know its a burden to understand me. Really a great thanks to Suraj, who sat beside me, listening to all my Craps, laughed with me and take 10% of my sorrow. Thanks a lot. Next would be Ibrohim. Who is willing to listen to my merepek words and chill outside when im really in "capsize" condition. Wraps who always look at my faces and identifies if i m happy,my teachers cum class who really cares for me,fatamorgna and all my close cum far friends,who really put me as one, and my Family, who don't understand but tried to understand what i'd faced.Thank You so much.

As i grew up, i understand the meaning of life. The people who had cherish me and made me who i am today, i am really greatful to you. In life, everything need an option. No one can live with all the things that they wanted. You have only left or right.Right or wrong.Live of death. Move or stationary. To get or to let go.When you don't move, you will be left behind.No one wil push you unless you push your self.

Happiness is what all teenagers desire. Independence is what all of us had always wanted. You can be both. But what's the use of having both you are not happy. Happy, is a very "complicated word". You can be happy but sad, you can be happy but angry, you can be happy but disappointed. Anything is possible. It's a lie if anybody say that tey are happy. A lie.

So to get rid of all undesire causes, Smile. Smile is the magic in each and everyone of us. Smile can't show that you are angry, sad, depressed, disappointed but only HAPPY. So to all my pals, Smile all you can. Never made you smile go away. When your smile goes off, you will know what happened.

~Azura.

Designed this for my class. haha. Nothing to do since i'd look tru the chem book.
Was kind of bored.
" When Boredom strikes, It may kill"-Sufiyan

I guess his so right.
hmm... Bored.

yea, i love the assembly show just now.
It was about " Love bites"

haha...wat they were trying to imply was, Love , Hurts.
Yea, i agree to it.

During that period of time, i was thinking of thing that wasn't suppose to.
The Story was so alike and yea, it keep lingering in my mind.

Nah, cut it off.Crap lah.

" i dont get stuck to the striker, i got stuck with the defender."- the lady actress.
how nice!

Here's the pixie kak!..nice??..dno lah..


So long and off.

Chem on the way!

I'm tired, tired and tired.
Tired of listening to those craps.
Tired of being tired of acting infront of what you are doing.
Tired of spitting words of wisdom to DISRESPECTFUL "GOOKS" Creatures.
Tired of the synical faces and behaviours.
Tired of the switch personality.


I miss the old memories that i'd scrapped of.
I miss the old behaviours that we all used to have.
I miss myself of becoming me.

Hmm...keept thinking in my mind,
R u just for real?
Do i have to infer?or understand your tone, asking you the purpose of what you are doing, and dno lah!

History is always a History.

BAND SYF CENTRAL JUDGING

WEST SPRING SECONDARY SCHOOL BAND

WE THE SUPPORTERS


Atie,Me, 10, In,Naq,Jan,Rose


Bolsheviks Vs The WHITES!

Whose da red?!


Atie and Me.

Hakim, caught in Action.!

Danial, Me, Atie and Hakim. {Special thnx to the HAND APPEARENCE!}
None other , Sufiyan.

ONE BAND ONE SOUND.
Yea. silver was great.Gd enough.
All the whites and the red..were having so much fun! hhaha.

It was the first time, i felt the school spirit.Yea! WAS SO GREAT MAN.
[i didn't get to feel it the previous yrs, yeah..cause i WAS marching too] =D
Mrs Liau was so power!! she shouted and lead the whole school.
We sang our School song PROUDLY! wEE!! ahah!

There's this group of ppl who were so quiet! But when they are in school, hahax! so hyper to cheer! "SAPER HUH?!" "members takdtg lah ..bab tu!"

Went back and yea , someone was forced to call somebody.haha!
it's a dare for you. i just so love it!! ahha!

Fun day. A memorable one.

* kk.Off...

A freaking distorted fast sketch done in school.
(done during my english lesson and the furies and hatred towards "ununderstandable" lesson had inspired me to sketch this. Badly done, but who cares? Simultaneously, the Song by HIM, "rip out the wings of the butterfly, kept lingering my mind". So, at that point of time [being in nomood and frust], i sketch as though i wanted to rip the wings of the butterfly.thank god, none, fly right above me.)

I was too bored to even listen to what my teacher has to said and yea, im sick and tired of everyday life.
I was too tired to even walk to school in the morning and so is night, for night study.
All i could see was million and millions of word. New and repetour.
Got back my test papers. Did fairly well. Great job to me.
English, man. Flipped, Flopped, Punked, Flunked.

Wrote my name for the evening class but nah, im too tired to go.
Suraj, "BADARIYA". Phui!
Waiting for Yj and some others to come my house.Not knowing y.
Just come lah, im too bored too.haiz.

Kk...enough of anything craps. till here. Off.~

tired, sick, and restless.
Blank, high and sleepy.
Love, Hatred and bored.
Hyper, energetic and down.

papercut tru skin.
5 times today.
Chair hit the toes.
2 times today.

red ants bites.
many times today.

Eat and feeling hungry.
Each and everyday.

wee. What a pathetic day.

i love them. Yes i do. I miss them . Yes, i do.
The photos that i put up resembles the friend that i miss so much.
They used to dry up the tears and bring up the joy.
I miss em.
Hidayah, sori ..i dont have ur pic..haha. But i still <3 u lah..nvm . Boleh jumper lah.fajar ngan jel tak jauh.haha.

I have the new ones that brightens my life. But i also hadn't forgtten the mischievious, fun and sad memories! ahha...great having u ppls.

the past and the present brightens my life! love it!

kk..off...

Listening to Babyface- Fire. How nice. I love the "concept" of song.
Yesterday was kind of a great day.Went for the night study because no one was at home.Till late night.Wrap didn't want to go so let it be. Went to meet Atie and we went off together.

Yesterday's night class was supergreat. I gain lots of tips from the P.Os. about how to handle time, clues for english comprehension and how to study Sciences. Mr Huang sat for about an hour, going through the comprehension passage and summary.Thenafter, he said how the teachers in RI taught them.Full of tricks and skills.=WOW=. Then came the lady P.O.she sat and i asked her how to ctudy physics and there she goes blablabla.haha! good tips too.

I will soon be geared up for my O! wEE! ahha! 21 more "days". How fast could that be.

2 more days.
Im scared.Yea. So scared that another day would be thrased. Making other birthday peep upset. After the incident of non-appreciative deed, im scared to make other people smile. I don't want to give false hope upon people.After thinking about what happened on 26 March, i feel that its not right to make other's happy, if our existance only causes disaster.
I don't know. Don't know what to buy, don't know what to give, don't know if i could give you a wish.

It's been time that i wanted to post this.After so many years. yes.After so many years.
It's on 27 October.I made a big mistake of giving him that Gift. I was forced to.
Things doesn't turn out right and at THAT POINT OF TIME, i think that was the most appropriate gifts.While others of my beloved "RRSS" said a big NO. I insisted on it cause " I Go With the Flow" without thinking of the circumstances. I didn't acknowledge hmm after that happened.Stupid stuffs were done and i was to put on blame. Yes. I regreted.So much of the dishearten, i decided not think about it ever again.But only after 2-3 Long years, we talked.Unexpected moment after going home from somewhere.Asked general question on how, where, why, and what. Hmm..the moment i was about to answered, he answered for me.hmm...ok, stop here.

yea. i miss that time.So much. Not forgetting, those who had build my courage up.Thank bebeh! ahha! ..
I miss "RRSS". I want time to turn back.But never a moment during end of MAY.Hmm..ok ...im hallucinating.

No matter what, i'll try making good things out of your great birthday.
Even if it' last minute.

Just reached home. School was great.To be precise, night class was great.haha!
Met Atie and went to school.Came along Danial and Sufiyan.Bringing all their DnT stuffs and hyperly studying and Focusing in completing their task. I STUDIED but the same time, we were all crapping on WORDS.We fought for the Right words! what the hell. Atie and Dan were always on the "Loud side" Whereas me and Sufiyan, just kept quiet.But till "this point" of time, i get my "quiet ass "up and started to bombard as well.haha!



We were crapping on the verb of "singular and Plural!" Here's the conversation :

"Hey, if 'You' use 'i', it must be WAS.Not were. "-Atie

" NO!, it IS WERE"-Danial

"Yup! You're right!"-Azura

"NO!'I' must be WAS CANNOT be WERE!"-Atie

" Ah ah lah! maner leh WERE!"-Danial

"Mr Dubey! help us in these and ...."-Azura



" Mr Dubey, yes..when YOU use I, it CANNOT be WERE"-Mr Dubey said
CONVINCINGLY!

so i fight for my WORD by saying, both can as long as you know the context of the sentence structure.




" let me ask you, which of this would you use?
if I WERE or if I WAS...haha!" - i giggled!

Mr Dubey smile and he said, Oh yar, YOU CAN use BOTH!

I won!! ahhahaha!! everyone Laughed!





Then, came Faizal..with his tired and 1/2 dead look...sat down and started joining our craps.Whereas Sufiyan was so into his "DnT".Good boy! ahha!




Not after a min and so, we laughed again and it happened for several minutes. By then, it was already 8 30. Study for a moment or so and left.




Not forgetting...thanks alot to Atie's Picnic Food. There WERE so many food. We ate and ate. Chocs, and sweets and biscuits and bla bla bla. Thanx for the SweTT talk too yar. haha!
bla bla bla...





* Im "Flunking" my Chemistry Test!.. I'm so sure about that.I'd studied but nothing goes through my mind! All the best for Chem test to ME! =D