After getting the results, i totaly wipe out the moment i reached home.
Im happy physically in school but drenching in the inside.
I got 23 and 29.
What was that suppose to mean?
Yes, i haven't put my heart and soul in it.
I played too much and did things that i wasn't suppose to do.

It a joyous thing seeing ur other friends getting 19 and less.
How i wished they'll get tht in times to come.

Talk to my fam about all the stuff and they encourage me to do my best after these.
I'd promised my self to do it.

i think about these to much and unexpectedly, my backbone injuries comes back.
My head give me more probs and yesterday was my worst shocking day i ever had.
I help my mum and i felt that something hits me on my head.
But i kept quiet.
nOt wanting to tell my mum or anybody else.
Soon after, my arm was cram.
That my back was 'jam'.
I was stationary at the side of the door for about an hour or so.
Mum and the rest thought i was joking, because i was still able to smile when i was in pain.
Because i didn't want them to think too much.
When the laughter turn to tears, i breakdown.

I can't move a single of my body parts.
Tears of heaven rolled down my eyes.
Sis was panicked and mum keep nagging.

My ribcage and 'rusuk' was motionless.
I supported my back at the wall leaning parallelly .

dad came hoome, and brought me to the 'dono what it called lah.'

she then said that, my previous injuries in the back bone, had spreaded to the rest of my body part.
I was 'oh god!' but im too weak to do anything.
Stroke may occured anytime.
When my blood pressure is too low.
Then got to know that there's blood injury in my bone.
I wept out bacause i couldn't control any longer.

told my dad and sis not to tell mum out it.
Hope dad keep it silence.

These happened when the day before, i had a bad dream.

As it was my first time, kissing my sis n mum cheeks before i went to bed.
They were like..yes azura. what happened..?
Then i remember i mentioned, " lass kiss before i go"
sis was like laughing.
Then i said, ''before i go to bed lah''.

The day it self i had that bad dreamt.
I dreamt about hair.

According to beliefs, mum told me that it is something to do with danger or death.
I was silent throughout.
I didn't want to belief what mum said.

I just get a chance to old on to the laptop as the rest of the fam are not at home..
Till here diary...
GoodBye.