20th January 2008.
I turned 18. Yeapyeap. *clap*
18? A good or a bad number this year?
Let's not make any assumptions.
Firstly thank you so much for all the wishes, gift, presents, hugs, kisses, loves or should i say, small thoughts. Thank you.
Let me be frank. I wasn't looking forward to my bdae. Well, i know it's over and in my heart, i kept saying.."thank god, its finally over." But, im really grateful that god loves me and willing to spare me a longer life. Thank you.
It's nice to have friends who are there, willing to be by your side when you think you are at the edge of the life zone on your bdae. What's worst is, having a half heartedly - want to celebrate birthdays and whatever fuck you would say. I wish , i was wasn't there celebrating my birthday.
Read this only if you have nothing to do.
I'm going to tell you how i celebrated my 18th birthday.
19th january.
I slept at 4 am on the day itself and find myself not able to do my prayers. I neglected my responsibility as muslim and what's more, i have already got my name scrap for not able to do the rest of it when i slept the whole day the moment i reached home. I AM TIRED. I was and i felt that i could rest in peace the moment i laid myself on the couch. However, some people just won't understand the fatigueness of other people. Thus, taking away my sleep, assuming that when i went home late, online and keep staring on my laptops, I WAS just having the fun time of my life. They didn't even asked if i have eaten, if i were sick, if i had too much work, if i need someone to talk thing out, if i need to jump down from 30th floor. None. I went home, they yelled to say, 'don't pretend to go slp, don't pretend to do your prayers, so on and so forth'. Have you ever think, how tired i am till i could just get into the train track, knock and thankfully got alerted by a car horn while crossing the road, have you ever think of that. Nope. When i didn't eat, have you ever asked? Or would you just say, 'argh, don't have to ask she have eaten outside. Must be at a standard place, she wont eat home food.' Whatever.
I got grounded and when i know i wasn't even able to stand up, you purposely said, 'aww, you think your the only one who is sick? no one else is tired huh?! Don't you think you can go out with your friends.' You started to repeat what you have said. AGAIN AND AGAIN.
20th january.
It was midnite and thank you so very much to people who have sent me bdae wishes to me through Calls, SMSes, Friendster, Bebo, Hi5, MSN Messenger, Emails and Individually. Thank you.
I was really thankful to you people who have spend a minimun of 5 cents and a few sec to wish me. Thank you. haha. For the small gifts, Self-made gifts, etc, Thank you. I cannot Thank you people more that i wanted to. Again Thank you.
Before my bdae, WE, as a family, have planned and AGREE on where to celebrate. I THOUGHT everything is going to be so fine. However, haha. Whatever. My initial plan was to treat them to Seoul Garden. Its like not so everyday, so i thought it would be nice to have a fam outing after a long time, busy with own work, school work, business or whatever. Then again, it backfired. Cause, of time. Its all about time. We were otw and then , my parent were like saying, SORRY, we have no time. or not enough time to eat out together cause i'll be late for this and that. Mum said it too. Then dad asked only the three of us to go, WITHOUT THEM. like, WTH. I kept silent and smile. Shooke my head and said, till next sat. And then again, "We have to go KL for some reason". I smile and nodded my head, AGAIN. and then, why not, NEXT NEXT sat. I SHUT UP and DRIVE.
We went to eat out and i spend my days with bro and sis. Then Again, bro started to backfired thing. For whatever reason. Then, sis and me, haha. Bought a cake and like whatever, went home.
At home, aunts and cousins came, like thats so usual. And mum started to fired up things saying about this and that. Saying.. ok whatever fuck. What is so furkingly diff to sing a bdae song? OK fine. i Dont mind you ppl don't sing. A prayer will do. Well, my dad did that when i was away, Thank you. Things are so diff that bro started saying, i bought the cake for us, why give them!?! ARGH! WHY WHY WHY? CAN I CRY! Damn! Ok shut up. Smile. I promise, tomo i'm giving you back the cake. Thanks for everything bro. Since none are willing to sing or whatever fuck, i cut the cake and That's marked the end of my bdae celeb.
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